"Beloved, I have called you to be a mother, both to your own children and to the motherless. You see Naomi in the Bible and you know the struggles that she has faced in her life and the loss that she has experienced. However, she continues to lay down her life for Me and for those that she loves. You are Naomi. I will call you to help others through their toughest situations. You will carry My name to them and speak My truth to them. You may become frustrated, you may be in pain, and you may not understand why I have called you to this. Just know that I am a good God. I will never leave you or forsake you. You are discipling people along their walk with Me. Do not forget that I am at the very center of your desire to love and nurture those around you."
When God first spoke this to me, I did not fully understand it. I heard it, but I did not really let it take root in my heart.
Then, I became pregnant.
Pregnant with purpose, that is. (Take a deep breath, everyone who rushed over from Facebook to read this because you thought that I was pregnant. [Sorry, Mom.] Y'all should know me better than that!) I let God's Word that He spoke to me really take root in my heart, mind, soul, body, and most importantly--Spirit. I started looking for opportunities to walk in my God-given purpose. I let it start to grow inside of me.
Now, I see how God uses me like He used Naomi. I know what He has called me to do.
However, you do not start out 9 months pregnant when you are with child. The baby starts as a few cells, then grows to a tiny human before exiting the safe harbor of its mother's womb. The same thing happens with your God-given purpose, but it is all in His timing. Many people say "Don't mistake the calling for the commissioning." They are incredibly different. Let God plant (or impregnate) His purpose within you. Then, take care of yourself and continue to let it grow. What would you do differently if you knew that your purpose was a living, breathing, God-given thing that was constantly growing within you? How would you nurture your spirit, your faith, and your relationship with the Creator?
For me, it has been a long road. I actually fought against my purpose in the beginning, avoiding ministering to people that were in situations too painful for me to minister to. Then, I began to open my heart and mind to what God was doing in me and through me. I began to really seek His face and question His intent for my life. I started to see why He would place certain people in my life. Most importantly, I stopped carrying other people's burdens and I laid them at the foot of the Cross in the arms of a Savior who could truly carry the burden.
Even now, it is a struggle. I feel His purpose growing larger inside of me each and every day. Going to Africa really caused me to see that I cannot fully understand His plan for my life. Jesus truly broke my heart for His people during my stay there. I would hold children in my arms and just cry to Abba as I worshipped Him and prayed for them. I never thought that missions would be a large part of His calling on my life. I did not see that coming and am still having a hard time processing it. (I should have known...Naomi did a lot of traveling.)
Beloved, He has a purpose for each and every single one of us that is as unique as your fingerprint. He calls us all to the Great Commission (see Matthew 28:16-20 and Mark 16:14-20), but He has so much more waiting for you, specifically. Are you willing to listen and let Him plant it deep within your spirit? Are you willing to love it, to take care of it, and to prepare for the birth of it at all costs?
Sidenote: Jesus is my boyfriend AND He got me pregnant. Have I turned into one of those Christian crazies?
Maybe I need to slow down with the analogies.
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